good things

song im listening to right now: billie holiday I'll be seeing you.

so cute.

order has been restored to my life.

the past two weeks have been filled with not sleeping, stress, attempting not to stress, lots of pros/cons lists, lots of talking to different people about all my life problems.

the issue was that i was all set to go abroad, but then decided as a back up plan, to apply to be an RA. then i got selected to be an RA (so did craig) and there were alot of financial benefits, and i was like ahhhh. eh. eh.

and we had to get deadlines pushed back and stressed a lot of other people out.

in conclusion, i am going to spend next semester in Alba, Italy. (and probably the semester after that in Oxford, England)

this summer i am going to save money to: a. fix my macbook. and b. buy myself a decent camera c. get myself some decent luggage for my world trecking! so that i can take some kickin pictures while abroad next year. and also stay in touch with my family and friends and everything.

at first i was really stressed that i had finally made a decision, but now im really happy about what i decided. because i wont be able to go abroad my junior year, because really that will be my senior year... and i have to do an SMP (probably a photojournalism book about st marys county with poems and big pictures i take) which means you can't study abroad that year. so next year will be spent not in the U.S.!! which is exciting for me, because i have only ever lived in NJ and MD. (booring...)

the nicest thing is to have a plan. even if your plan goes incredibly wrong, its still nice to have had a plan.

i have alot of work to do.

-8 pg essay for english 350

-6 drawings for IVT

-weird psych assignment

but tonight im going to see the dress rehersal of Cabaret with craig!!

tomorrow i have a meeting with the career center to get my resume looking better than it does now.

and then friday i have a meeting with Ruth Feingold who is our academic advisor, about how i can study abroad and get all the classes i need in and where. stuff like that.

I am SOOO happy that i have finally reached a decision about all this. it was terrible to have it hanging over my head.

life is good.

off to dinner!

Cheers!!